silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- morning i was being good yesterday, i spent all day or at least a decent portion of the day with focus and studied for this bs. i got my lovely burger from the bar and met some dude who wants me to stop by the bar again after clinic tonight and he said he'd buy me a drink and a burger. ha. i'm considering it, not interested in the guy and i don't think he was interested in me, we were just chatting. but i could always go for a free beer and burger... we'll see how i feel after clinic. came home with my lovely meal and proceeded to be lazy and watch a movie while i ate, and then i was good again and studied. and then i heard that people were going to party and i thought ah fuck. i'm so weak. i hear the word party and i know there's going to be beer and music and the boys and it's right outside my door in the hallway always, and i just go for it. but at least it was later, that the bulk of the day was done in terms of studying. so i go out to the hall and see the lovely beer pong tables out, the lovely music playing, and i see the boys and they all say heeeeey, and i commence the drinking. and we all chat and laugh and talk shit. d2 comes up too but he has to go to school early for more testing stuff in the morning, so he plays the beer pong and has me drink the beer. i've always loved that arrangement. at some point MS had passed by because he was doing laundry, and that chick i don't care for ran off to talk to him, leaving her overly sensitive ex-boyfriend pining after her, which i got to hear about hours later as he drunkenly whined to me about her. i basically told him to man up and stop being a pussy. he's maybe three years older than her, but still three years younger than me. she had completely ignored him and went up to MS's place to hang out, and it made him jealous, and i'm like well yeah no shit, you guys still play games with one another. he said it hurts his feelings and blah blah, and i said so what are you gonna do about it? i always have to tell him to grow some damn balls and confront her if he has problems. he thinks she's so wonderful but he can't explain why. and he does this pouty face thing that just annoys me, because i just think that he needs to toughen up. "ooh i played football in college, i used to be cut, i used to blah blah blah..." MAN UP DAMMIT STOP BEING A PUSSY THEN. but that's just me. so later after hallway playing was done and a few of us went back to R's to smoke and be stupid some more, i hear that that guy and the chick are arguing in his room. good. get it out. and i text him "don't be a pussy". haha. then blah blah sitting around later in the night and then R puts on a movie and it's just three of us left, and we all pass out to the movie. the last guy leaves and it's just me and R. i fall asleep and the movie ends and i just chill there. i'm in a semi uncomfortable position on the bed, so after a while i get up and turn off his lights throughout the room and whisper good night, close his door and go home to sleep at like 4. even though ordinarily i would stay, i just felt like leaving this time. also trying out that new thing of not being a pussy myself and not staying over there anymore. unless... yeah. whatever. i know myself and i won't follow through on this one. something lovely is that i have not a damn thing to do today at school until 6 p.m. except i have to remount/reset that case that dr asshole was being a bitch to me about last week. i brought all the shit home with me for the weekend and haven't touched it. figures. it feels really good to not really have patients today (until later) and i can just be a complete lazy ass and stay in bed for a bit and study. i'll get over that feeling though because my day is full tomorrow. :( okay blaaah i should shower and get some coffee going. 9:28 a.m. - 2010-05-24 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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