silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- moody i've been feeling low lately. i feel like things are just absolutely stupid for me and the only highlight comes like once a week. even drinking isn't bringing me up.. probably because i'm drinking in this boring ass house by myself with purpose of forgetting everything. dentistry pisses me off sometimes, sometimes i love it. at this stupid place, it's more of a hatred relationship. they seriously are such pushers for treatment at this place. i understand in managing/owning an office, you have goals that you want, and in hiring drs to work for you you also want them to be worth what they are getting paid. the thing is, i'm paid off of % of what i produce, not a daily rate. so wouldn't the problem be mine, if i don't produce enough, i don't get paid? shouldn't it be something that i would take the initiative to change if i want to? the thing is, people come in and have an area that's bugging them or something. understandably, yea, i'd focus on that area. my whole thing is, focus on what the pt wants, take care of that, and don't push everything on them at one time. if there's work to be done in a quadrant, then that's easy, just do it all if they want. but to do everything in the whole mouth all at one time, while tending to every other patient there is and doing the same thing, that would keep me and the patients there all day. whatever. i'm leaving the place anyways, but i'm just miserable along the way. there are good and bad days, just like anywhere or any job. i just have to stay optimistic and keep a damn smile on my face so everyone thinks that i am happy-go-lucky. and my escape isn't quite as clean as i'd like it to be, because i have to go back a few times for follow up shit. like crowns or partials and whatever. i'm just in a pissy mood and i'm going to quit before it gets worse. shower, starbucks, and smile. been researching apartments or houses to move into. don't have any money. hopefully i will soon enough though. gotta get out of this house. 9:37 a.m. - 2010-12-10 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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