silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- study study i am trying to convince myself not to drink another beer. i only had one. it's still semi-early though, but i have to study. plus i have night clinic tomorrow, so i really have to get something done tonight. fine. i've convinced myself. i also have to get off of the internet... i saw H today and started chatting with him. he is absolutely adorable. i want to hang out with him more but he doesn't really go out like i do; i think he stays in and is a good student and studies etc. definitely better than me. i'm thinking that everyone is a better student than me though. R sat at my table at lunch today. i chatted with him and pretended, and was silly and all that i am supposed to be around him. all the while still being crazy and crazy for him. it never ends. i just found out that he's also going on the boat cruise next thurs, that i didn't think he would go on. which pretty much means that i'll naturally migrate towards him and perhaps end up being a nut case... i don't plan on doing that. i'll pretend to be normal around him. i won't be jealous and i'll let him chat with whoever and play and party with whoever. i will figure out how not to be a fool around him. it's okay, my roomie will be there and she will mostly hang out with me, i already know, so i won't have him to fall all over. i sort of want H to come as well, but i don't think he will. he isn't very social. but it would be a great opportunity for us to chat and bond or whatever. i know. another guy i'm silly about. i've been attracted to him though, so it really isn't anything new. i think that maybe this is the first time i've mentioned it though. okay i think it's time to make coffee. 9:07 p.m. - 2009-06-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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