silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- more blah i am just floating by these next few days. i don't know what's going on. i'm just hanging around and waiting for whatever will be willed of me. done with clinic. cemented the crown i've been waiting to get done with all quarter. sooo happy about that. i feel like i can get things done. i feel like, although i am definitely slacking and unaccomplished, i feel like i have gotten some stuff done. some people still haven't done any endos or crowns, and i've now completed 2 of both. and then when next quarter starts, i'll have two more almost ready to go, then i can test case a build up, prep, and temp on this one guy i'm already ready for. unless he too turns into an endo... okay, this guy EB from high school has recently been chatting with me online or texts. he had said before that he wanted to hook up with me or something, and now all he does is tell me what he wants to do to me and bs like that. and i play along, i humor him, but i also tell him that he's stupid for thinking that anything would happen with us. because, one, he has a girlfriend, and two, i don't want him, i'm not attracted to him. so i think, but i'm not sure, but i think that he actually thinks something might happen with us if he's pushy enough on it. no. i like to have fun, but not at the expense of my common sense. anyways, i say this because he's chatting with me on fb right now saying the same old nonsense, and i'm just playing it off. okay i know. one minute i'm whining about wanting someone to want me, and the next minute i'm whining that the people who want me aren't what i want. i never said that i made any sense. i'm pretty tired. i guess i was up late last night studying for today's exam. not like it helped. i'm glad it's over though. the only bad thing is listening to people whine about the test afterwards, the "oh i hope i passed", and "oh that was much harder than i thought it would be". yeah... no. i don't care. waste your whines on someone else. i can't do anything. i take a test and leave. i don't mull over the answers after i choose one. i don't run and check all the answers right after i'm done. i do my thing and i peace out. i saw R today, briefly. i guess it's bound to happen when our lockers are 3 or 4 away from eachother. nothing acknowledged, completely fake, once again. no genuine conversation, ever. i'm over it. well, not really. but i like to tell myself that i am. he doesn't have the right to make me feel bad. i think we are in the midst of having another falling out. i do wonder what his problem with me really is... i'm out of energy. i need a nap. i'll finish later. i also saw H. still adorable 10:39 p.m. - 2009-06-08 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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