silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- sex and love so i'm back in cali and im happy. i was ready to get away. there's still a lot of issues going on with my family, my sister etc, but i can't solve everything, i can't always save the day. but i still get everyone calling me to make sense of everything. whatever, bring it, that's my role in this family. M came and picked me up today, we went to Sausalito to spend the afternoon. ate lunch there and had some ice cream, and had a nice walk. it's so pretty out there. all those rich people, it looks like i really need to make bank to be there. then he took me to his place, the first time i've seen it. a couple people from school have been there, so it's not a bad thing for me to come over i think. his girlfriend was at work, but he said that it shouldn't matter to her or bother her that i was there because we're friends blah blah. i'm hoping there won't be any problem with her at all. we've always been nice with eachother. i just have to pretend that everything is exactly the same. i just talked to my little sister and her situation overall is pretty bad. she's poor, homeless, jobless really, carless now i think, has nobody to help her out with her kid or even to help her take care of herself, and is now resorting to talking to her ex-husband to help her out with everything. sounds like a bad move because he is a terrible excuse of a human being. i wish i could just finish school already, a year past already, and that i had my own place and could just have her crash there and have everything just work out. i dont know how she let her life get to this point. she used to be in a promising place. she worked, she had things going in some kind of order. i think she ended up quitting jobs all the time, as opposed to me, who stuck with a job for perhaps too long even though i may have hated it, because practically speaking, you should make sure you have something lined up. i guess we all make our decisions, we just don't always think them through. there's a lot of things she did that were poor decisions, but i'm not giving up on her. if i get out and get something started with my own office and get an apartment too, i would have her stay no matter what, and i would try to convince her to work with me, as an assistant or front office or something, because she needs some real work experience if she wants to do anything with her life this is why i had to leave vegas in the first place; i couldn't handle the stress of everyone else's situations. i would give my 2 cents and advice etc, but then she'd always do something opposite. when she would complain about her ex before they got married, i and everyone else always told her to get away from him. but she has some weakness issue for him for some reason. then she got pregnant and i told her she should abort because now this asshole who pretty much abuses her will be forever in her life.... nobody listens to me. gotta go, my friend is back in town and it's time to drink. 5:46 p.m. - 2009-07-09 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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