silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- me and my m my hell week in the oral surgery rotation is over. the last day wasn't too bad, i got to extract maybe 4 teeth i think, so that was good. the good part of it all is that it's over. the best part, however, is that i got to hang out with M later. he picked me up like an hour after we all parted. we got some food and beer and went back to his house. and we had lots of nice fun sex. god i love his body, i love the way he feels, i love kissing him, everything. we tried that new ky yours + mine stuff and it was okay like tingling or whatever for me, but he was like umm i feel itchy... so that's a no go there, at least with him. there were a couple other things we were supposed to do, like play with other stuff or whatever his gf doesn't do with him. i like being an alternative for him, he seems to be having fun. i still don't feel bad about it all. at some point after maybe the first time last night, i was like damn, this is sort of crappy, to not get to keep this. it was all nice because i got to lay there with him, on him, and just sleep and relax and feel good. but then it's all a lie, it's all just fooling around, and i can't keep him. i need to find someone new, someone single. my friend CG wants to try to push R to stop being a punk and to get with me. she asked me about what was up with us, and i told her about it all, and how it's pretty much pointless. so i really have zero hope in that matter. okay i have to go, it's bbq time. i'll continue my aimless rambling later. i also have to lie to everyone about what i did last night because i wasn't around at all when they went out. they already started asking, and M and i came up with a story, so we're holding on to that. sigh. 9:21 a.m. - 2009-08-08 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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