silver4's Diaryland Diary

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those are..

i want someone to tell him how irrational it is for us not to be together. i want someone else to say it, because my words are like the fog floating by; he barely notices. i don't know if he still knows that i care. i mean, i know that he's aware, but i don't know if he realizes the extent.

i want someone to say 'hey, you know she still loves you, more than anything'. and i want it to click for him.

i never made it back to sleep. i tried. i should've taken the sleeping pills when i got home. i just now cooked grilled shrimp and pasta, and ate it all. i was fairly hungry.

i just took 1/2 dose pills. only because it's almost 2 and my alarm is set for 7. i want to sleep but i don't want to be too drowsy to be get myself together in the morning. i'm looking forward to tomorrow's patients.

he's still online right now. but i can't say anything to him.

fuck it, i'll take the other half. coffee will have to do it's duty.

the end.

1:45 a.m. - 2009-08-14

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