silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- interrupted complacent. acceptance. why do i behave as such? why do i just let things go on like this? i wish i gave a crap. i wish i had more caring within me. rather, i wish i had more reason to care. i had the morning off today, and my roommates had class, so M came over. neither of us had class obviously. and he came over so early, 9 am, for the mere purpose of having sex with me. i mean, we talked and whatever, hung out, ate, chatted; we are friends first afterall. but then we both had to go about our day and we parted ways. fortunately he managed to come into and leave the building without any classmates seeing him, or so he believes. he says i am too kind to him. i find humor in the whole situation. i find humor that i am accepting of it all. that we continue as such. that he's getting married in two weeks now, and that we are in such a stupid affair. i'm having fun though, don't get me wrong. but there's so much that just doesn't make sense. how? why? mostly why. this situation is not going to work. it'll work for now, we live so close. but then he mentions visiting me in vegas after we are all done here... okay i'll have to get back to this. i'm in the middle of giving relationship advice to a friend who is sad and crying i guess. i find myself often chatting with friends about relationships and their boyfriends etc. for someone who's best relationship skill is breaking up other people, i sure do get a lot of requests for advice... okay i'm sleepy. eyelids closing once again. good night world for now 10:20 p.m. - 2009-09-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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