silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- puppet R says jump, and what do i do? i saw that i missed a call from him, i was hanging around clinic. i called him back immediately, obviously, because if i skip a beat, it's one beat too many. he said come over now, that he had food and beer. and so what do i do? i go straight home, open the front door only to drop off my bag right there, and continue down to his place and eat food and drink beer. because he said so. at least now it's not as bad as it was before. at least now i'm not as crazy emotional about him as i was before. i've gotten to be really good at pretending i don't care about him anymore like that. so much that i think i almost believe myself. strange. i mean, we haven't really hung around one another much lately. we've both been in our own zones, busy with one thing or another. me with my distractions, him with... who knows what. no matter what though, we're on good terms and i would love to keep it that way. it's his birthday soon, too. pretty sure we'll be going all out for it. today sort of sucked otherwise. nothing big. i zoomed through an exam and cleaning on a 15 year old. gotta love those easy mouths, not a spot of decay and barely any plaque. cake. then we just chatted about high school and so i had to drop myself down 10 years or so to be on her level. otherwise, blah day. blah blah blah. i saw H briefly and barely talked to him. we got in an elevator together but then some chick swooped in with us. otherwise i would've tried to kiss him. and finally, also saw JB today, semi chatted with him as well. he was leaving and i had to go up to lab or something. i stopped to talk to him but my elevator was there and i didn't want to obviously just ignore it and focus on him... can't be too attentive because then it leans to show how crazy i am, and i really don't want the crazy to show quite yet. but i like him. he's cute. we should kick it. fuck i need to find a flight for christmas. 8:48 p.m. - 2009-12-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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