silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Over it I am so frustrated and annoyed right now. I hate being here like this. I want to go back home where I am free and can do whatever the hell I want to do. Being here is just irritating because I have nothing and am outside of my element. I don't have a car so I can't run off. I can't sit around doing nothing. This is nothing for me. I would seriously rather be sitting in lecture right now, at least I'd feel productive. I guess I'll have a beer. To calm my nerves and irritation. Not a good approach, but this is stressing me out. It's great and all to visit with family and all, but if visiting consists of me sitting around bored because I can't get away, it's not fuckin worth it to me. I can't wait to leave... I had shit that I wanted to do and that's pretty much shot. There's nothing good for me anywhere really. I don't want to be here, I don't know if I can live out there (financially). I... I just don't know. I think I just need to clear my mind. I don't know what I want right now. But the beer tastes good. 2:12 p.m. - 2009-12-30 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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