silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the light again, it is like an echo: too many thoughts to claim one as my own... we attempted to go out tonight, the crew. we went to the place, but the line was so damn long, it just wasn't worth it. sucks because it was for a birthday, but we just couldn't hang. so we bounced and went back home, where we collected the beer that we had (or that i mostly had), and proceeded to play drinking games and get fucked up to wonderful music and company. we all got drunk, good times, great fun. so here i am, still in love with R. i don't know what to say about that. but i stare at him and i love him more and more... i'm dumb. so i just got home from walking my friend home in my fuckin little outfit plus a coat and my house slippers, scuffling down the street carrying his big ass as he's trying to fondle my breasts and falling all over the place drunk. he didn't know the combo to get into his place, so i sadly called up a friend who i know lives in the building, at 2 a.m., waking him up to ask him to let us into the building. i felt so bad waking him, it was terrible. but i'm also sitting there holding up a grown ass drunk man who can't function, who is banging on glass and pulling on doors to get them to open... i wanted to punch him but i couldn't. but anyways, it all ended up okay. i took him up to his apartment where he had a key fortunately, and i said goodbye, and scuffled my ass back home in my pretty little slippers. i then went back to R's place, where i had left to take GW home. i see R sprawled out on his bed and nobody else in sight, music blaring from his computer. so at first i walk away, but then i go back and turn off his music, turn off the lights in his room, turn off the lights in his apartment, and close the front door. why? because i am in love with him, and i will do anything in the world to make him comfortable and safe. and because i am just stupid enough to do so. the heart brings you back. i can't help myself. just...let me give in... 2:33 a.m. - 2010-02-28 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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