silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- as is life i was drunk (surprisingly) when i wrote last entry. basically R pissed me off. but i got over it. he was just being stupid. we were actually pretty cool on friday when he came, we hung out and blah blah blah. then last night we all went out again and it was good, but then he was being stupid in the club, saying stupid shit and reminding me how immature he is sometimes. but instead of being super pissed at him, i just went my way to the other guys and kicked it with them for the remainder of the night. they were more fun. but i can't say that i don't want to deal with him at all anymore. i'm just done with the emotions of it all. this trip sort of validated it all. when we first hung out on friday, i was satisfied where it left off with us, i feel like we can be basic friends, no issues, no emotions. he's a very peculiar person. i hate that i cared so much about him, but i feel like there isn't much residual affection there. i can grow and learn from this 'relationship' with him. the bad thing is that he's coming again next month, and again in september or october for some reason. but i don't know if i'll see him those times. i'm pretty indifferent about it. maybe he'll come out when i have to tend to some bachelorette or bridal party stuff for my friend CH. that would be convenient and i wouldn't feel bad about not seeing him at all. i didn't even go say goodbye to him today, i just peaced out. i did send him a text saying it was good to see him and drive safely, all happy and shit, just to sound carefree and indifferent. meh. if he comes next month and tells me about it, i'll come and say hi. god, it would be nice to have a fuckin boyfriend or something to distract me. i was told by my friend S's brother last night that i am an ice cold person. i was semi offended semi humored with that. i don't think he knows me well enough to say that, we've only hung out maybe three times. and it sort of came out of nowhere, we were all dancing, and he grabs me and says that i'm very cold, and keeps repeating it, with a smile. like it's entertaining to him to say that. i don't know, is that supposed to be flirting?? i did absolutely nothing to him, no reason for him to say that. i mean, yeah, i'm pretty heartless, but i don't really advertise it. whatever. he's gone now too. maybe i'll ask him on fb why the hell he said that. and the last thing i shall comment on is that this CH's soon to be brother in law [--ah wait. R just texted me "good seeing you too. fun weekend. we'll be back soon". yeah whatever.] added me on fb sometime last week, i might have mentioned that. not sure. anyways, blah blah, he's married, has kids, i didn't know why he added me, but since i'm her friend and we'll both be in the upcoming wedding.. i don't know. i accepted it just because, whatever. well apparently yesterday he texted CH and asked about if i'm single and interested in dating because he has a friend who is interested in me (ummm so he's basically showing off my page and pics to his friends?? okay...), so yeah. this friend has two kids (not a problem) and just turned 29. and supposedly no "baby mama drama". CH sent me a copy of the texts he was sending to her, it was a little funny. who knows, maybe i'd find the guy attractive. i'd be down to date someone, obviously. but CH told the bro that she'd have to approve of the guy before she'd let him introduce us. good lookin out, CH. good lookin out, indeed. the end for now. 4:03 p.m. - 2010-07-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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