silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ridin solo last night i went to go see Machete for a midnight viewing. was it necessary to see at that time? was it really that awesome that the urgency of a midnight viewing was the case? no. however, AV wanted to see it, and i wanted to hang out with her, so there you go. the way she presented it to me last week was that it would just be us two, which is what i want because i get tired of the big groups especially when i don't really know some of the people, or worse, when everyone is couples. lucky for me, it was a mixture of the two. so i sat there on the side of her, being single, while her other side was her hubby that she could lean into and cuddle and blah blah blah. me, being super hard core bad ass, ate my popcorn and sipped on my coke. then afterwards everyone just wants to stand around and look around and i'm like wtf are you kidding? the bars here are empty and closed and i don't want to drink anyways, it's after 2, i don't even know some of you guys and i don't want to... so then AV said they had to leave blah blah so i peaced out too. drove back to my dad's in silence because it's good to reflect with that and i was awake enough to not get sleepy on the long ass drive. but it was a funny movie if you like robert rodriguez's style. anyways. the points i picked up from the movie are that 1) i really need to do a lot more ab workouts. michelle rodriguez's body is hot, and 2) i would like to have a real date to go to the movies with. because it's nice and all to go with dad and bond, it's nice to go with groups of friends and hang, but wtf? you know what i mean. today i'm supposed to meet up with my disability insurance lady this afternoon who is in town for a couple days, and she wants me to meet her accountant... no, no, not a relationship hook up, but a professional one. whatever, i'll listen to what the guy has to say, if anything. i'm not in the mood for anything serious right now. i don't want to sign up with so many people for things, it's driving me crazy already and i don't work yet. but i have to get all this shit organized so yay. yay. he better be attractive, because i could use a break. my luck would be that he's much older and married. although the latter... okay i'll stop. anyways. afterwards she wants to "hang out with a local" so i'm thinking greeeat it's going to be one of those experiences. honey, there is nothing special that you want to do at 4 or 5 in the afternoon in vegas. the only thing that pops in my head is that we can go somewhere and eat and have a couple drinks and chat. god i don't want to talk about insurance. i don't want to talk anything business. and then we have plans to go to a club later tonight, i'm cool for that. maybe i should've seen if i could gather any other friends... i'll see what my sister is up to. why am i being so lazy? i should be at the gym. it's okay, i'll do some exercise here. my mom and grandma are in sf, i don't know if i mentioned that. i should've went with them... :( i bet my grandma would've paid. she's there to do a few concerts over the next few days, she's a jazz singer. i told M that they were going out there and he was like "wtf it should be you!" yes, it should. but yeah. such is life. i got an interview for some place that i think will suck, but when it comes down to it, i need to get a job asap. i need money, and i honestly think the only way i'll be satisfied is when i open up my own practice, so fine. i'll take a shit job to start paying back my ridiculous loans. i don't have to be happy, do i? it will all be whatever i make of it. i just have to go with the flow. i am admittedly pretty depressed that the other place didn't get back to me. it's such a sweet deal and the environment was really nice. i don't know, it's unfortunate. i'm just not the right person, right? and they're not the right group for me. everything was starting to line up, now i'm at a halt again. this all better be worth it. i started looking at houses. not like i can afford anything right now. but a girl can dream. that's all it is at this point, it's all just dreams: a job, a house, a decent life. i really want to wake up now. 11:00 a.m. - 2010-09-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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