silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Wait it out I wish for more. And I'm still waiting to become important to somebody. When can I find somebody who will care about me? I think I was built to love and to give, I don't know why he's taking his time. Doesn't he know that the sooner he finds me, the sooner I can care for him? Whoever this mystery man love of my life is, he must be worth the wait. I mean, it's obviously not R, no matter how much I beg for it to be so. Sometimes I think I just need to have interest in someone, to pass the time in between the guys who end up being mine, temporarily. I just need to care about somebody, it's in my blood, it's my life's doctrine. Just wishing for more. Still would like to share the details of my day with someone; I mentioned that before. Sit on the couch together and share experiences. Be close and affectionate. Do I have to wait until march when R comes back, so I can lie to myself about us and give myself more false hope, pretending that the little things he does and says are his indications of affection? Wait until march, so I can assume that when he's close to me and says he loves me and holds me in bed at night, that it's actually partially true? I believe so. Well then. Until march it is. 1:07 a.m. - 2010-12-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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