silver4's Diaryland Diary

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The boys

Monday. My gosh.
I actually had an interesting weekend for the first time in a long time. Saturday was AV's baby shower. It was quite possibly the longest baby shower I have ever been to. It was basically like just a normal party with a couple of games mixed in along with over an hour of them opening presents. There were a shit ton of presents, im pretty sure their registry is complete. It was nice overall, I saw a lot of people I haven't seen in a long time, and even one of my patients showed up who was referred to me by AV's dad (they work together), so I think he was surprised to see me in normal clothes, as most of my patients are. More importantly JL was there, the brother in law who I hooked up with a couple years ago. I still think every now and then that I want to see what we could have, but we never seem to be on the same page anymore, and he always seems to be dating somebody. I have no idea what his current status is. Next obstacle is his best friend MV, who I also kinda almost hooked up with several years ago, maybe like 7 or 8 years ago. But at the time I didn't let myself hook up with him because I knew JL liked me.. so all I did with him was kiss here and there. Well I haven't seen him since maybe 6 or 7 years ago, and then he showed up at the party and I was like ah crap. I don't recall how we had parted, but we hadn't spoken to one another at all all this time. And he knows that I slept with JL, and JL knows that I kissed MV... So when MV saw me there, he was shocked and was like wow..and so he found his way to me and tried to talk to me like nothing had changed at all. He seemed very happy to see me, and he quietly insisted that the two of us should hang out sometime. He said it several times, all hushed to me..as if anybody else cares to overhear us. Anyways..after the party, I went with all the boys to some casino to drink at the bar and gamble a little. He had insisted that i go with them there too, and I had to clear it with JL first that it was okay for me to tag along. So we went, drank a lot, wasted some money, ate, etc. MV kept trying to talk to me privately, it was a little funny. But I kept trying to talk to everyone and keep it mixed up. At the end of the night, I left without getting too close to anyone. Which was good. It's easier that way.

And then came Sunday. And R was in town. Which means...havoc. He came to take some licensure test, and when he was done we met up and got dinner, had drinks, got stupidly ridiculously drunk. More drunk than I have been in a long time. Basically back to dental school drunk, the way i get only when I am around that crew. It was really fun, I was happy to be back with him. I didn't get emo with him, except he told me I should stay the night in his hotel room because I was too drunk to drive home (yet I drove us to his hotel and to all of our drunken adventure spots). And there were two beds, but of course I get into the bed with him. I don't know why! I cannot stay in a different bed if he is in the same room as me, and it's just us. And nothing happens, nothing ever will. It will be this ongoing tortuous relationship with him until he hurries up and gets married to whoever his arranged bride will be. By that time it better be completely done between us. Not that there ever was an us. Anyways.

So that was my weekend of drunken adventures. I also decided to be in a yes mood and I gave my number to every guy who asked me this weekend. I need to just be open to more people. I tried to be nice and positive and see something desirable in all of the guys..who knows. There was one guy at the end of last night who was catching my eyes down the bar as I was speaking to R. I would talk to R and look in the general direction where the guy was and he was always staring at me. So I would raise my eyebrows at him to acknowledge that I saw him, and he would smile at me. And it looked like he was determined to catch my eyes over and over. So I gave him a lot of glances, and eventually I got up to go to the bathroom knowing that he would follow me. And voila, once I got out the bathroom he was standing there in the hallway waiting for me. So predictable! We talked and exchanged numbers. He was with a friend and wanted to join me and R for drinks, but I told him that wasn't a good idea..I can't really have guys around R for obvious reasons, just as he should know better than to have girls around me.

We have such an odd friendship. But I wouldn't trade it for the world.

The group is all coming to Vegas in August..I don't know if I mentioned it. I am looking forward to that. Another round with R. We will continue to be as we are, always. And then drink it off and start all over again, and await the next group vacation. I think the next will be Hawaii. I could go for another trip there. Bring it.

6:32 p.m. - 2012-04-30

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