silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Ummm I talked to R tonight online, briefly. He almost always initiates our conversations. He's out flying across the country looking for a new state to practice in and make big money and retire. He is ridiculous. But he is so smart and has the skills and the ability to do exactly what he wants to do. And he has the benefit of youth on his side as well. Not that I am old, but I have seven years on him. He is making a shit ton of money out there, with minimal obligations and no pressure from family or anybody, telling him or recommending that he stays in a particular area or state just so it works out for all of them. I enjoy having people who somewhat want me around. It works out. But I think I need to have something stable. Talking to him kills my self-confidence. It makes me think I am failing and will continue to fail. But I won't let his bad words whisper in my ears. I will stick with my plans. Crap..well I had more to say but my sleeping pill is kicking in. Good night dland. 11:32 p.m. - 2012-09-18 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
||||||