silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Charmed I don't feel much regarding my actions generally. I'm not sure what it is about this one, but I am beginning to feel... guilty? That doesn't change anything, and I don't have any regrets. I just feel like I'm a crappy person sometimes, which I am fully aware of. I was beginning to analyze it and myself, and maybe in a way I am simply jealous because they have it all. They have their someone, and their happy little worlds, and their homes, and their things. I have nothing, and so I take my stinger and pop a hole in their bubbles. I am a crappy person. The first step is acknowledging it, I suppose. It is a false confidence that I am given. Honestly, I am not a threat. I don't try to seduce. I don't put any extra effort into being more physically appealing. I am simply around for some reason or another, and they take it further for pacification of their own curiosities. Not blaming them, rather owning into it a little bit for once. Again, I don't know what I feel, but whatever it is, it will soon pass and I will regain control of my mind. Also, he reminds me of T in a few ways. That can't be good... 5:33 a.m. - 2014-05-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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