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Itch

The boys had a concert last night at some casino venue, so I went there. CA was there, looking good, and I don't know why but I really want to hook up with him again. It's been a couple months since we have been together. I have been with JA if anything in the meantime, but it is not as fun with him. It is fun of course, but he is much more serious, and he seems to be on a mission whenever he comes over, and leaves shortly thereafter. We have nothing to talk about anyways, it's not like we are going to bond or anything. He looked good last night too. Damn men. I'm just a horny mess, ignore me. Met a guy at the show last night actually. He looks young though, like in his mid-twenties. He played the violin, and apparently he does violin lessons, which I was considering doing a few months back. I had seen him before at some other concert. Looks like a nice guy, so I probably won't text him so as to not subject him to the world of me.

Other than that...supposed to go to a pool this morning with RO. He wants to work on his pale color, and I already have enough color for the both of us, so I will just swim merrily for a couple hours. The pools get draining to me though, so I doubt I would stay too long. Afterwards, who knows, but I would love to hook up wirh CA tonight if he is down, but knowing him, he will be unavailable. I won't ask him though, because our relationship does not work that way apparently. I don't know why I allow him to dictate our relationship. However, lately I have left early from all of our events, so I don't give it a chance to happen. He left early last night, which sucked because I enjoy talking to him when I can. I like when he pulls me aside and wants me to go with him, wander around or to have a quick smoke. I only smoke when I am with him now. I don't really care for cigarettes, but I smoke when I am with him if he asks me to. Because obviously I am impressionable when it comes to him. Ah, to be so foolish...

Yep. Need to meet new people. I need to go back to sleep. Slept maybe four hours. My sleep is always short when I had been drinking the previous night. I will be summoned for that pool in a few short hours, so I shall cherish this precious time before the day gets busy.

6:59 a.m. - 2015-06-27

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