silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lame I am lame. I'm tired of being lame. I want to sleep and fade away once again. I am so tired of everything. I just woke up but I want to sleep again, so I took some pills. Does it work that way? Probably shouldn't. But I don't care. I don't know if there is antlything I have to do this weekend, like study for. If not, I want to be invisible. I don't want to go out anymore. I don't want to waste money drinking or playing or anything. There's too many social events going on right now and I don't want to participate in any of it, I just want to fade into the background. I'm going to try. I'm tired of being sad over this shit. I really need a break. I'm so happy that this is ending and I can be away. I tried. Or I'm trying. I'm trying to be friends again with JK after all the shit she and R did, because apparently she felt bad about how it went down and she was just a bystander anyways. But fuck. I don't have it in me right now. I can feel the drowsiness kicking in. I think it goes well with the lingering beer in my system. Why. Why. What do I do this weekend? Do I pretend? Do I go out and play more tomorrow afternoon? I don't know. I'm undecided. Ah, I guess I mean this afternoon , it's 6 already. Waiting for this shit to kick in. 2 more weeks. 2 more weeks.... God I feel so stupid sometimes. I can't wait until this is over. I need to reboot. And once again, I give up. I give up caring, it just doesn't work out in my favor. So he has my heart. Who gives a fuck. If he's just going to trample on it and play with it and treat me like this, it's unnecessary. I'm ready for happy moments again. 5:39 a.m. - 2009-05-30 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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