silver4's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Cheers to the invisible man I'm watching movies from my collection that make me sad but feel good, my favorite movies. Eternal sunshine, closer..I'll pop in some others, too. I wish I had someone to curl up with on the couch to watch these movies together in silence with a couple cocktails. There's a guy I kind of know, he wants me to come over and watch movies with him. He also slept with a girl long ago who supposedly looks like me, and shares my name, which is why he is interested in me. He has said that he wants to sleep with me. I don't have any interest in him. Hence, no movies with him. Asked me to give him a back rub. That will not happen. I should meet someone who would want to spend that time with me. I would have to actually go out and put some effort into it. I have eased back into wanting to hide from the constant outings. Drinking to excess, etc. I shall instead sit here immersed in my thoughts. A couple things happened that make me...hurt? Somewhat? I aim to not ever be hurt, so it was an interesting situation. Slight challenge, but easily overcome. People are just cruel and malicious. Deceitful. Devious. I have my cocktail, my movie. I'm all set. Pillows are comforting. I may go out still, eventually. Meet somebody new. Who knows. Some things are just...pointless. But I have my movie, and my drink. 8:30 p.m. - 2016-06-11 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
||||||